I can’t fight this feeling any longer.
And yet I’m still afraid to let it flow.
What started out as friendship,
Has grown stronger.
I only wish I had the strength to let it show.I tell myself that I can’t hold out forever.
I said there is no reason for my fear.
Cause I feel so secure when we’re together.
You give my life direction,
You make everything so clear.

And even as I wander,
I’m keeping you in sight.
You’re a candle in the window,
On a cold, dark winter’s night.
And I’m getting closer than I ever thought I might.

And I can’t fight this feeling anymore.
I’ve forgotten what I started fighting for.
It’s time to bring this ship into the shore,
And throw away the oars, forever.

Cause I can’t fight this feeling anymore.
I’ve forgotten what I started fighting for.
And if I have to crawl upon the floor,
Come crushing through your door,
Baby, I can’t fight this feeling anymore.

My life has been such a whirlwind since I saw you.
I’ve been running round in circles in my mind.
And it always seems that I’m following you, girl,
Cause you take me to the places,
That alone I’d never find.

And even as I wander,
I’m keeping you in sight.
You’re a candle in the wind,
On a cold, dark winter’s night.
And I’m getting closer than I ever thought I might.

And I can’t fight this feeling anymore.
I’ve forgotten what I started fighting for.
It’s time to bring this ship into the shore,
And throw away the oars, forever.

Cause I can’t fight this feeling anymore.
I’ve forgotten what I started fighting for.
And if I have to crawl upon the floor,
Come crushing through your door,
Baby, I can’t fight this feeling anymore.

 

I’m always thinking of the right words to say to describe exactly what i feel but most of the time the most important things are the one left unsaid..

A friend of mine early this afternoon gave me a letter taken from inquirer.. A letter (from Phoebe)to you from me.. I just wanna share it with you..(some words are deleted and few were added) here it goes.

Dear YOU:

You will always hold the distinction of being my first love. Unexpected though it was, someone like you taught someone like me how it is to be loved, to be cared for. It didn’t work out between us, but the whole experience taught me to love as well.. and to make me stronger.

For the longest time now, i have been blaming you for all my fears and apprehensions regarding in love. I have been so scared of falling in love, fearing that I just might loose myself again. Ive been holding a personal a personal grudge against you because you hurt me so badly ( i know you knew it).. Perhaps I did not want to let go .. You have such a part of my life for how many years..

(Last Year) I am having some difficulty accepting that I am in love again (for its been years since the last i felt it) — and its not with you.He has been so patient with me, understanding, caring, gentle.. doing things that i wish a bf would do it for me.. I don’t exactly know how and when exactly it happen.. but it all started with friendship with complete ingredients of a good relationship..

I would like to thank you for the love you have given me.. for the care , though you may not have shown it…

There are so many things left unsaid between us.. or may be too much has been said ..

Thank you for the respect whenever we were together..(but what happened when you say those words(is that respect???)..

I used to think I cannot live without you, but people change. Ive change a lot and so with you.

We cannot continue being as close as we are (like our common friends want us to be). I respect and love him so much to do that..

I just want to let you know that i will always be here for you if you need my help.. I’m no longer mad…,even you accused me so many things.. i can be a friend.. after all you will always be my cousin

Despite of all the things that happen to us.. with all those misunderstanding, i know underneath it all.. you are a good man.. and i know you have your reason…

Someday i hope you’ll no longer hate me.. I’m already in love with someone .. someone i can see myself growing old with.. i know you too will feel that one day…

ingat ka!

From Me

P.S always keep this in mind.. Be careful what you wish for, it just might come true..

i love the closeness we share.. how comfortable we are with each other.. i love it when you ask my opinion.. i love it when you show you care.. and panic when im down..

we are so close now.. that sometimes i dont know where you and i begin…. we share so much thoughts.. dreams.. laughs.. and secrets..

you were there for me when things arent doing so good..You’re the kind of person i’ve always wanted on my side and it really feels good knowing that you are part of my life..

I love our friendship and I’m hoping it will just get better and closer in time…

i feel so cold in the midst of the night

wanting you to be near at my side

with silence everywhere thoughts of you invaded my mind

wishing you are at my sight…

Too young for your eyes to see

Too young for your heart to love

Does age matter when it comes to love?

Can’t we be lovers though we’re years apart

You’re too high to reach

As high as the kite can fly

You’re too tall to climb

As tall as the mountain I cannot climb

You’re too far from me

Far as the heaven I cannot see

So much hope I have…

That one day when I wake up

Theres no wall between the two of us

And you’re just one hand apart..

They say its useless, for me to do some things…

They say im stupid to dream of impossible things…

But I care not of what they say…

As long as im thinking of you all day…